will you dance with me tonight?

Sunday, September 24, 2006

i want to run away, from anything that stirs up this emotion of mine. i dont want to think about it, much less to even feel it. i dun want to know whether you still like me or regret losing me, and i dun want to know that we will meet again. no matter how hard you try, i had told you once and that would never change-it's just simply impossible, dun you ever get it? i dont understand why you just cant stop fretting about the past. frankly, i would not really mind, if you can just be kind enough not to express your sentiments about our past TO ME. definitely you should be smart enough to think that this girl here, wouldnt want the past to keep haunting her mind, or perhaps more of like polluting this mind which is already preoccupied with much more important things now.

do not blame me that i never did warn you about what's going to happen in the future. i did. perhaps you were just playing the game of ignorance, thinking that someday i will change my mind. i would, and i did, but the option i took before stays. and i did tell you about that too? so why is it so hard for you to ever get it? haiz. and when you get so disappointed, you wud just blame me, for not telling it straight to you...

i made a mistake of choosing a path that puts us together in this so stinky situation. and it all started with 29 october. so, wouldnt it be better if we were just friends, or just got connected together by our mothers? i admit my mistake, and im sorry. i had enjoyed the time i had with you, but i realise theres just more than having so much of similarities together. you need feelings, not mere words. and you just need commitment, something i, blatantly admit now, lack. i need time to get this flaw repaired, but even after this, i doubt your hope would ever shine your way through.

and thank you so much for asking if i have turned fairer now, i feel much more sore by that question you asked. and yeah, this brings me to one thing, i hate it when people expect me to be so perfect. fair skin, flawless skin,or to have at least 175cm as my height. please, just take a look at yourself before mentioning anything sore to me. and if you realise you are in a good position to perfect my image, come and show your stuff. i would be pleased enough to have your comments. But if you arent, then, be nice and just advise..

11:00 PM

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