Thursday, March 30, 2006
so yeah, here i am, after many weeks not going online. and yeah THANK YOU AZIE FOR MY NEW DESIGNED BLOG!! haha. yupyup:)
ok, here it is. my life story till now. im not going to tell you everything, cos its gonna be long, so im just telling you bits and pieces of it for now.
im optimistic, something which many, find rather annoying actually, and frankly i could see it from your faces! i can accept people being practical, but not all the times thinking negatively. ok, i find it annoying. hah, its true. why did i suddenly say that? well, i dont know. i felt quite hurt when ppl dont let me do what i want to do, when the one who is supposed to do the descision, after all, is me. and you will ask me: "so why do you bother?" and i shall answer: "because those people who say that mean alot to me." and you will ask: "who are they", and i'll answer: "you guess."
i hate it when people ask me questions like "why are you dressed like that", "why do you have to do that", "what's with your 'lost' look", "whats with your eyeliner and mascara" and blahblahblah. if you see me smile, it doesnt mean i like it kay, im just tolerating you. this is me- walk like that, dress like that, talks alot, loves camera, loves makeup and perhaps blur. dun ask much. and yeah, i dont know why, but i hate it when people use me as a way to describe things, im not a mannequin, yeah? oh, sorry, maybe you are.
i simply hate it when people mistook me as some nice girl who would not scream at you when i get angry, that they decide to do whatever they want-testing my patience esp. i might not scream, but i would just keep quiet and not talk to you for some time till i get my blood pressure down. hah, if not, perhaps, you'll die. but yeah, only certain people have seen me that bad before, of course you dont want to, rite?
well, lately, im very quiet. apart from being busy, im just afraid of getting hurt as well as to hurt others. im in a very bitchy mood lately. (largely due to my PMS) so yeah, try your best not to get me pissed.
oh btw 25/06. IM ANGRY AT YOU GUYS!!! im tired of repeating the same old shit and you guys still refuse to pay up that stupid darn money! pleaselah, i may be friendly to you, but yeah, im a human being who can get angry too, and get tired of repeating the same old line!! YOU TOOTS.(ok, but dun get me wrong, i still like you guys though, but i hate your attitude)
i love the following: lights, white, reflecting images, clicks, eyes. see no link? you will some day!!
takecare to all.
8:03 PM
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